Tuesday 28 December 2010

If it wasn't this,It would be something else

I though i am strong enough when something happen to make me feel down but today i just realize that i am pretty weak person Who always try to pretend and put a joker face in front of others.I was have questions for myself most of the night. who am i? I am so much different than i imagined cause i am finding life to be so much harder than i planned. i am confused by all this Happening. i get afraid. I want to ask you God is it true that for every tear i cry you cry a thousand more? some friend told me he is but i really don't know he will be. Now i am hurt and hurt more then many peoples and why you always like to see me cry and keep hurting me?how is it fair for me to be living with Disappoint life?how is it fair for 29 year old to know this much pain? This is what you give and prepare for me?you know that i trust in you, and always trust in you. Please help me to have better life, i want to wish you in this time i got too much worse in my life just one thing i want you to help to let my dream happen. dream that i never have a chance to get it. do i blame in you? yes i am.
i am tired to sit and cry alone like this. I am pity in my self. i hope will have someone to sit beside me and listen to me to comforting me but i still all alone every time. i tried to walking alone on the road of life. i never give up hope. i never give up in my destiny. today even i have to walk alone with tears in my eyes i still keep walking and will follow my aims. today i might be a loser but its won't take so long for me to get up. tonight will be the last night i will cry so hard like this for my crap life. tomorrow what will happen i will go through it all alone. i know life so hard harder then i was imagine but i will be strong and will never give up, i promise for all my broken heart.I hope time will heal my wrecked and broken hearts eventually. when you read this post. don't pity on me. i want you to know and understand that still have many peoples like me have worse life more then you. this is just few's part of my life that i want to share.If it wasn't this,It would be something else.

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith,
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith!