I am not the best, but I'm trying my best !

So, its time to start writing again! Just sit on the table upstairs where i usually use for learning and updating. Now it's quiet late but i still feel awake. Today just went to work as a part time job at Thai massage place where is a bit faraway from where i live. Today we got 200 Kr. well its not that bad.

The sun. That is all people ever talk about here, if the sun in shining, everyone will go out and be in the sun, even if it's freaking cold as heck. I can honestly say that Swedes are obsessed with the sun. That's not even an exaggeration. Now its getting dark so quickly around 5 pm in the evening and the time was changed this morning that is mean here is 6 hours behind from Thailand. Day time will getting shorter until the sun will set at 3 pm. It will be super crazy watching the sunset in the middle of the afternoon! Now everywhere is kinda like gold and yellow there look very pretty and romantic..I love Fall!! Autumn in my heart LOL..

Actually now its not too cold yet i am still feel ok. I think this week the school will have the fall break for a week because 2 of the kids they are not going to school but i didn't feel any different coz i still work as the same thing everyday. The past weekend Me and my friends was made farewell dinner for our cute friend who will leave to go back home in this Wednesday, we cook Kow man Kai. you can see on the picture below, very simple and easy to made this dish.

Kow man Kai By Jeab

I don't know if i mentioned about this before, but i have been really tired and get homesick alot lately but i still love to being here in Sweden. I didn't feel too bad but i am just too tired and was not eat enough. last Friday i was took two kids to Halloween party and i was made big mistakes to eat Cinnamon. I'm not realize or can smell its was that apply pumpkin dipping sauce was mix with cinnamon until i was going to ask the lady who made it coz it was yummy and i want to know the recipes how to make it. But i got a bad luck. I came back home quickly to take my allergic pill but its was abit late. I got chock and hard to breath. in one hour i drank 6 bottles of water and try to get rid of it out of my body. It's was really helpful, after i feel better with breathing my eyes getting swollen and sore but its not that bad i still can go out and met friends next day. From now on i have to have carefully about Cinnamon again and just wish i will not get a bad luck anymore.

I am not really have much thing for update right now not sure why seem like my brain need to rebooting. I promise i will update again pretty soon after i get rid of numb feeling away. I knew before i came to live in Sweden that everyday here will not be happy and wonderful for me. As you know I am not the best, but I'm trying my best ! anything changing but I am Jeab who will never change! God natt, Hej då

Puss & Kram

Autumn

Jag partar litte Svenska.

So how to start? I am sitting at my laptop table and just finished study Swedish language and also eating my Lunch.

I have just been informed that you need to update this so here its goes.Today i was laughed at for telling my friend to go ask a boy out, i am completely don't know about the Swedish dating "way" when i said that. here you don't just go ask someone out, you become really good friends, hang out, then basically agree to be in a relationship, but that doesn't mean you have to spend every freaking second together. It is much more casual then in Thailand personally i think it is better here. I don't know lol.. Aside from that, I feel like my Swedish is not really improving, I can hold only very basic conversations in Swedish, just very simple conversations, and sometime i though i understand what the peoples saying to me by guessing without realizing it then i am really completely wrong! How come Swedish language is so hard!

I will have been in this beautiful city for two months. It's still completely unreal. I love Stockholm more that I could ever imagine, and I feel that is my second home. I have never been surrounded by such true beauty before, and having only eight months left here just simply won't be enough time. Everything seems to be falling into place, My host family, couldn't be more fantastic, I care about them so much, and can't even bear the fact that I have only eight more months to be with them. I'm sure your thinking, that eight months is a long time, which sure, it is but it's not long enough. I do miss home very much though, and I miss my cat, dog and family and friends, but it's not that hard anymore. Of course whenever I call my Mom every second day I make sure I know my cat, dog they're still alive and fat.

As i said on the last blog about here is very secure and now its still secure some how but maybe its all about me. Last Sunday i have been travel alone to the south part of Stockholm . The city is call Flen. Its quiet faraway from the town about 2.30 hours its made me feel so tired and its really nothing there. Just quiet city and not busy like in town. I leaved town around 9 am not too early but its Sunday not many peoples at all on the Subway. Everyone normally want to sit separate coz the train was empty and i also like to have my own space to sit alone. On the train its just have only 3 peoples there included me. Got a man sit behind me and here peoples always listen to the songs or something. well its just begin! next station we got a new man came to our train.. i feel like yeah.. we got more peoples but i wasn't good at all he came to sit in front of me and i was wonder why here got lots of empty chair so everything seem ok until he start look at my face and took Zip pants down, i didn't look straight away to that but i still can see through the window! "BinGo" Its happened with again, Oh Mannnnn....

I was start scare and shaking, he still young like 35 year old or abit more and big man. Who know if i scream or said something to make him lose his confident he might hurt me. I never think something like this will happen to me here in Sweden. Amazing ehh?? well i just enjoyed that show for awhile (kidding) then i realized that i have to leave, the train stop next station i was stand quickly and ran to sit with a man behide me. He look at me like what is going on you or he might think like i was think about that man before why i didn't go sit other place! i tried to tell him by eyes contact coz i don't want to talk and he still don't understand until train stop next station and the crazy guy was leave the train. I feel so terrible to continue travel alone but i was still keep going. I just want to tell all crazy men that i am not a porn star please stop using me by look at me and done in something stupid in the public place!

I don't judge others, but who am I kidding? Everyone is constantly judging someone else, whether they are judging people on what they are wearing, or who they hang out with. Every time I make a judgement on someone I don't know, I instantly feel regretful for thinking something about someone that I know nothing about. I feel this is something really important that I've really become aware of so far. Everyday i do think positive as much as i can i don't need to try but its become Automatically think like that. i didn't mean like i never think negative but its no point to thinking bad then why we need to think negative right?!

Now its getting cold everyday and sometime i was freezing and shaking to stand and wait for friends outside, i never know that if i getting too cold i will start dizzy! it is happen with me recently. my mouth,legs,hands, are numb. I don't want to Imagine about next month coming! Just hope i will survive..

I think i will go for now, And above here that is some of the events that happened lately. Thanks for spending your time to read this blog. Bless you.. hej då. Puss* puss*