Hello Stranger!

Sweden here am i... I am her in Bromma Stockholm. First day arrived in Sweden around 2.30 am host dad Kim was stand and have my name sign but i am not even see him coz actually i never see his picture before i have been look for Karin host mom, then he'said my name pretty clear i was turn my face back and said yes! Is me..we are about 30 minutes away from the airport i was so tired from travel but i was happy and excited to be here. well i got really nice and warm welcome from Henrikson Family!

Today is my third day. last 2 days was so fun for me, First day just arrived about 5-6 hours they took me out for ride on the boat to the lake to see the town nearby! A lake here is sooo huge and long way! on the way is abit cold,bumping but so fun, we went to eat icecream kids all love them! after that we went to swim on small beach near our house around 6 pm but then sun still shining then water is cold for me i am not even want to touch the water, lol..

Everywhere around the house they're got lots of apple trees, cherry, pear and other fruits you can pick and eat easy, many fruits here are sour for me but now my tongue is use to it lol....I found people to be friend but some not really. The sun here is abit wired for me haha, sunrise is around 4.30 am and sunset around 10.30 pm but there not really bother me! Our house is near the lake nice view and a little hill. the weather is very nice now not cold and abit hot in the afternoon. last night around 8.30 pm i and kids are still outside and played tempo line i feel cold because my hands getting cold like cold season in CM.

last 2 days for me here is super cool, The family are so nice to me, made me really comfortable to be here. kids are so lovely and always want to show me things. They're have 4 children oldest girl name is Elsa, she is really cute and gorgeous, next his name is Artur he kind and really try so hard to speak English with me but he never give up! he's like to play guitar and always want me to sing, He said to his mom thats he feel love me already and he said the things i did last two days is much more then the last Aupair done for a whole year! that's funny! Next her name is Ingrid or siri, she is so sweet girl she like to pick pear for me to eat like to hug and smile. youngest boy his name is Olle he is so cute and active he love to play tempoline and cars, he love star wars, his birthday next month will be star wars party, and i will be a princess Leia lol!!! will see..

Today the family will going to take Artur to stay with his parent for a week in Finland and leave 2 girls with me here at home. They will come back on Sunday night. This weekend is gonna be fun hope so haha we might go to town for do some shopping, will let you know later!

Ok guys i have to go get ready for my new day, I can say that being here today is really nice and fantastic for me! Thanks for Jesus to brought me here on the right time Thanks for my family who love and teach me how to be patient and not give up hope! Thanks for my new family for warm welcome and being a good friends for me here in Sweden! Thanks for ya'll to read my blog. I love you all. Cya next time!

My new home

New room

Kim & Karin

Arther,Ingrid,Elsa

Elsa & me

Pray For My Journey..

Hello internet (or more accurately, hello my friends and family who will be reading this. . . hopefully) and welcome to my Blog.

Tell me what day is today? Oh yeah Today is Wednesday July 27th . I am still at My Home sweet Home not moving anywhere yet. I didn't update for awhile sine the beginning of July after i got my Resident permit. Time gone by so fast i am going to live in Sweden next Monday! Have i told you guys i am not really like cold weather? LOL anyway i am moving to live in freezing place! let see what's gonna happen next. I want to say that i want to be a penguin.

Everything kinda almost ready, almost finish pack. I have to been stuck with packing few days ago as pack, unpack, pack then unpack over and over! Fun? nahhh boring..Actually almost done and i hope i will not start to pack and unpack again.

I am leaving Chiang Mai on 1st of August then waiting for my next flight in Bkk on 2nd at 5 am. will be arrive in Sweden on 3rd at midnight..( CNX-BKK, BKK-KIEV, KIEV-STOCKHOLM ) My travel time is almost 24 hours! my goodness! will let you know later how i feel after all.

I wish all choices can be as easy as shopping at Tesco. But most important choices are not. You may have to deal with your own emotions, your fear, your struggles, your integrity, passion, physically. It may cause you more money, more tears, more time and patience.Today my choices is going to Sweden as i wish for a long time to be there then this choice will be easy or hard i have to accept and handle all about it. I can do it. One thing i have to remember and tattoo on my forehead is PATIENT!! Actually i hate this word but i am always keep being patient person.

Ok guys i am sleepy and can not think much thing to write it down now, My feeling is alittle strange and confused, I will update my blog again when i am arrive to my home in Sweden as soon as i can. please pray for my journey to Sweden .I want to say i love my family and my friends here in Chiang Mai TH, Cya next time on a new land.

I am the one who creates the light and makes the darkness. I am the one who sends good times and bad times. I, the Lord, am the one who does these things. Isa. 45:7

The last i want to show you some pictures of my farewell..

Fare run with Allicense , Connie, Bethany. Ran 42 K but i have done only 28 k.

Fun Run

Farewell night with girls

With Mon

Good friends

Here's Hoping

I really 'hope' that someday I will go to travel oversea as Europe. You know, there are alot of things that I hope for in this life that I might not receive. I always toss the word 'hope' around like it means the most trivial thing. I really hope that I get invited to that party, I really hope to go to Denmark.

...Then I get disappointed.

It goes deeper as well. "I really hope I get married, maybe even before all my younger siblings do? Maybe before I turn 30?"

...Then I get disappointed.

BUT, Hope is a gift from the Almighty Father and today my Hope is working by him, I wait in expectation for over a year, patient for a long time but i never give up of hope. I get disappointed about going to oversea 2 times and i always ask him "why' over and over and today i got the answer. Who read my blog i just want to tell you that God love you and he always prepare everything for you because he know everything about you. You just have to be patient and don't give up, pray, when is the right time,

...Then you will never get disappointed.

Today i got a chance, a new opportunity to go to live in Sweden for a year. I will live in Bromma, Stockholm with a new family. This experience of living with a new family in another country will help me face new challenges and travel before i settle down with my own family in the future. My journey just beginning! Everywhere i go and everything i do Jesus he will always walk beside me.

This time this part of song is really rock me!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

All in all, I realize how much God loves me and that His love is not shown in circumstances, in earthly treasures, in dreams fulfilled, because I feel like I have none of those. But I have Christ. My treasure. He shows His mercy new every morning. His promises fulfilled that He will never leave us or forsake us. His promise that He will give us a future and a hope....and hope in Him does not disappoint...

Thanks to spending your time to read my blog, Love you all

Bromma, stockholm

Out with the old and in with the new..

I have NO idea how and why time flies by so quickly..I really try not to let it make me sad, and really just try my best. Today is my another Birthday, My day was still simple, normal as everyday. went to work came back home and get some rest, No party, No gift from friends. Specially ่ีgot gifts from my family.My mom and Cummins family, my mom cook my favorite food for dinner, Its NOODLE!!! Richard, Connie, Tip and Bethany wish early happy Birthday on facebook, That's was nice!!! This year i bought Ukalele for myself. Actually is great and i start to practicing. I love Music! Thanks for some friends who still remember my BD and sent me BD wish by sms or even on Facebook. Thanks for AIS to gave me free Unlimited call and sms LOL

(little late update at 11.20 pm) I Spent the rest of the day on my birthday at connie's house. Little party with worm in bananas!! ewww.......Tip and Bethany gave me cinnamon free sticky cookie its yummy and got a pink lunch pack from connie.. They're the best family and friend of mine! one thing i didn't get sms from anyone hahaha...

These are a few things that help me to be a happier ๋Jeapy On My Birthday****TODAY (2011)****

Outside my window...chilling my Birthday late afternoon, with bad of leftover Birds poo poo on the windows and wind blow outside.

I am thinking....First which bird use my window to be their toilet, Next year will have someone take me to dinner?, Time is too fast. Sometimes it feels like life is just passing me by.

I am thankful for... the laughter of peoples around me, the smell after a rain, my relationship with Jesus, Lemon jelly ;) I'm thankful for my mom, Richard&Connie Those who I can turn to when I have a question or need help with just about anything. It has been a wonderful and hard road to travel in life. But I've grown and learned so much. I'm learning more every day...mostly from the mistakes I make DAILY. I'm thankful for my talents which don't use as much as I should. I'm thankful for my Savior and for the opportunity I have to serve in His church.(His church for me is mean everywhere i helping peoples are his church) I feel the most like myself when I'm helping others. I have always had a strong desire for this and I hope I can do more in the coming year. I love Chiang Mai.

I am remembering... How life is so fun when i was teenager and when i was studied at Chiang Mai University.

I am going... to be entering my 30th year! Yikes!

I am currently reading... Experiencing God.

I am hoping... that I get some time to get some things done in my life. get a Visa to go to Sweden.

On my mind... there are so many different things bouncing around my head, I wouldn't know where to start...

Noticing that... this is going to be a year of spiritual and mental growth...

Pondering these words... Happy is as Happy does!

A few plans for the rest of the week... We'll going to see a Movie or take my mom going to eat Buffet this weekend . And I'm looking forward to going to D milk this weekend to try another coco drink.

One of my favorite things... Smile!!:)


Life is beautiful, if we only have patience to allow ourselves to see its beauty, to hear its unique melody and to remember it in our hearts...

"Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you" Isaiah 46:4

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEAB

“Every good and perfect gift is from above” James 1:17

What I've Been Up To

While it's been quiet on my blog lately, it hasn't been quiet in my Daily life. The past 2 weeks ago, i have been down to SukhoThai province for the race call “SUKHOTHAI... RUN FOR THE WORLD HERITAGE” as i wrote on my last blog about taking a short trip to somewhere on the weekend. This race trip it was good and i can say that i like that place. i got there by the bus. I leaved my town around 9 am the bus ticket is not expensive, it took about 5 hours to get there. this trip i was travel alone but met many friends there and spend time with them at that's place.

When i arrived there. i was looking for a place to stay and i met other lady who's from Chiangmai and came here for the race and she have look for the place to stay the same. At first i though i want to stay alone and get sleep as much as i can but that lady she was asked me to stay with her in one room but two beds, I thought it's a good deal just paid 150 Baht. After that i went to registered for Mini marathon 10 k and i was changed my mind later when i met the others friends they're ran Half 21 k. i though i should run 21 k but the problem is i didn't practice for run long distance like that for a long time! and i still did it!

That night i just realized i got big mistake! to stay with that lady. she kept talking to me until 10 30 pm and she's also turn the light on all night long! Ohhh man... i want to say to her"Do you know ?i start the race at 5 am and i have to wake up about 4.30 am and I NEED TO SLEEP!!!" She ran only 10 k. all night i can say that its terrible night, i am so tired in the morning. I am not blame that is her fault is all mine! haha

We start ran about 5 or 5 30 am i am not sure, forgot!! i ran with Bethany she is very good long runner. first 10 k we both are fine but after that we both got cramp on the legs. Bethany got one time but MEEE i got manytime the last 5 k its was soo bad and i was so tired and so hungry! In the end we both finished 21 k in 2 hours 45 minute. Bethany got the first place and i got the second place and we both have to carry the trophy what's look like a Kilometer Mark back home. It's was a nice trophy, medal and also nice running shirt. Do not ask about the way back home! i can say it's was terrible i got sick for a whole week!

I'm grateful for the opportunities. Although I am thankful for breaks and not every day is sunshine and roses, as we all know and i hope i will have more chance to take a little trip like this again soon.

About my daily life still same same, taking care of 2 boys and i also got new name is "Best" suite me i think LoL.. I m the Best! sometime i am abit bored as you know i am not really like to do anything same same over and over. i still want to exercise my brain like thinking. to be a nanny is easy and you don't have to think too hard but tired! I will continue to be with them more another month, leave them in the end of June for a reason. i will continue to talk about this later.

May my heart and attitudes reflect Your beauty! Amen.

Thanks for spending your time to read my blog. Hope you all have a great weekend...Love ya

Release my thoughts..

I hope everyone is having a good beginning of Thai New Year. I haven't been here for 3 weeks. I just... read others blogpost and decided that its about time I should blog again too though blogging is like no longer in fashion, but i'm a non-conformist ALTHOUGH i have FB, but at least I don't have twitter. I am back. They have been for like almost 3 weeks. I can't believe it. It seems so long ago, yet I have no idea what I've been doing for the past 3 weeks. I mean I've been pretty busy but for the life of me, I don't know how I've filled all the days. Still, I've done lots of things I've been wanting to do.. like meeting new friends, going running even i am pretty lazy and also sometime i got surprised to see a guy showing his ugly stuff under his pants to me while i am run.Yukkkk..i like to playing games sometime, click like to the friends post on FB, gone clubbing (just for the experience)so, you know, its been fun so far. And I finally have time to daydream as much as i want, which is such a relief. Hahaha.

past 3 weeks ago was the Thai New Years celebration Songkran, i just did celebrated our new year with family also done manything as Buddhist tradition and went to water fight around the moat with friend. I have my water gun and also have bucket. we just got soak less then 10 second to get in to the moat! crazy but so much fun..i wasn't here last year, went down to the beach spent time alone in Koh larn Pattaya. After went to get fun time with friend around the moat i was realize thats i should haven't missed Songkran in Chiang Mai again. haha Chiang Mai Is My Kingdom!!! I have not many picture to show you all how much fun here.

Most of the night i wake up in the middle of night and release my thoughts. Have many reason to make me waking up as rain and wind, the worse thing is nightmare! some time after i woke up i have been think to manything like last night. I wouldn't say I’ve never tell lies. Or hide the truth. But honest is the thing I want to be. I’m easily believe peoples. becos i want to be honest & truthful to myself and others, I want other to believe in me as i believe in them. "Believe" look more properly in Believe word still have Lie word in there! Oh mannn...sometime i think i feel that the world owes me something. the truth of the matter is that the world owes me nothing. haha

I am planing to take a short trip to travel somewhere on next weekend. Will to go alone for this trip as usual . I feel good but lonely sometime when i travel alone but my mine use to it and i feel being love it though.

ok that was like a really long blogpost. And I'm supposed to be finishing my trip planing for next weekend. Hahahaha I totally not good planer actually. Thank goodness all the secrecy is over though. sound great ! well its time for me to go to bed.Good night for yall. Love you, Bless

I am a long runner..

I have no idea why i write something like this in my blog, Just for fun or maybe i run out of story to write?? just think to exercise my brain and its simple and easy to think and write it down. No need to go buy other writer pocket books to read others mind.. You can write your own pocket book!! This post i wrote about Love Follower..start an easy story. No copyright hehe.. let read.

When i was young in PE class a teacher told all student to run around the field in 3 laps and he also said anyone who is the winner will get the prize. Everyone excited and very ready to this race even me. First start everyone so fast i was smallest girl in my class but don't think i will be slowest one. I was not run too fast but try to not stay too much behind others not because i am tired or i am not a good runner but i love to run and i always enjoy to talk to my good friends while we run.

The first lap was pass everyone getting slower, some tired and some try to be slow because they want to talk to us but this time is a good chance for me to pass them but still keep talking sometime we gossip other friends in front of us hahaha....we didn't care about the time or the prize.we just want to run and keep our energy that we can be in the finish line.

If you compare your love and run i think if we look in the other side it might be the same. Everyone have your own finish line, your own goal but even a person who is the first winner its doesn't mean they alway catch great love. good time also doesn't mean and guarantee you always get a perfect love. Now social life teach everyone to be overtake do not let other run pass you because that's mean you will lose a good chance in your life.

For me experience and society out there teach me " do not chase other if you not sure you can catch them" you will lose your time and energy..seem like stupid. But in reality most of peoples try to chase a person who they love although they knew they will never can catch them.

I am the one who have my own finished line. my love story in the pass if i compare with run. I was run too fast and he also fast and always run in front of me. i am inlove i try to run faster to be closer to him and never let him alway from me too far. When i almost chase him i chooses to run slower and better to run follow him all the way. I can pass him ofcourse but i didn't do it. do you know why? If i can chase him or pass him maybe i will never see him in my life again but if i run behind him like this i can still see him in my life even he will never look back and try to run slower to wait for me. If i try to chase him and if he know he will run away from me. One day if he fall down i can run to help to pick him up maybe he might ask me to run together with him, who know!! Love make you hope but in the same time love make you so stupid.

Recently this person who i was run follow now i give up and let him keep run away from me not because i am too tired. it's just about i am not train enough and i can not be patient to see him try to wait for me. he can have a good chance and good life to find other runner partner who much better then me..and now he found that person and i am happy for him that he can have a good runner who holding his hand and run together..This is the true!

I can choose to run other way with other who want and wait to run in the same time with me now i think i am already in the finished line.

Time gone by and now i am a runner who love to run alone, not try to chase or pass anyone. just enjoyable the view beside me. look at the mountain, river, people and natures around me then i realize Love is really around me. do not put our heart on other feet because one day if they run away from you, you will sad and hurt.

Three years ago my heart broke, Three years ago i am so ugly, i lose myself and also draw in my tear.Three years ago i am a dead person and though i will never have heart to love anyone again. Three years ago new Jeab is began. Three years ago my life changed forever. Three years ago seems so long ago, yet three years ago also feels like it happened just yesterday.

Certainly, i am not a princess, this ain't a fairytale. i am gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well. This is a big world and i was in a small town and i hope one day i will find one who be ready to hold my hand an run together in the same way!

Love is not what is most precious in life ...

But love is what makes life most worthy.

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